Summer 2009:

When no one is by you what do you think? Last night I almost told him.

She stared instead. And he loved those eyes.

I’m wondering whether he knew just by looking. He talked a lot so I couldn’t think, wouldn’t worry. But I’m unstoppable. It feels cheap holding hands at the bar. Which is why I’ve never let it happen. The summer makes me lazy, so I shower sitting and have the water come to me. Life becomes something else when you have someone who wants to kiss you everyday. This is the first time I haven’t had to use my tongue to enjoy myself.